lead-heavy, long-lid stare,
I’ve seen sunrise,
I’ve seen Time’s own sculptures,
‘n you don’t like me,
you don’t care.
why can’t,
why can’t,
why can’t you just shut up?
why would you be unyieldin’ in your space?
she came wet ‘n thick ‘n so, so sweet.
but she had thickness to her,
‘n it put me in mind of climbin’ mountains,
but I gotta be,
I gotta be the biggest,
I gotta be the best,
I gotta be monumental.
Never, never wanted sex.
Couldn’t handle bein’ second, second best.
lead-heavy, languidly there,
The difference,
The difference,
is I’m callin’ my own faults,
cardin’ my own fouls,
The first was so small,
‘n the second too.
Like fuckin’ an old cotton-thin pillow.
‘n it’s never so much beauty as experience,
‘n was she ever an experience,
she came wet ‘n thick ‘n so, so sweet.
She cupped my face ‘n gazed so, so sweet.
Lips round “no”
so, so sweet.
It ain’t so much I think I’m right,
as I been, done, ‘n regretted.
Just savin’ you some trouble.
you’re goin’ round,
callin’ me her nightmare words.
‘n I’m fresh-full-o’-grins,
’cause if I were half the person she was,
I’d still be sleepin’ in her arms.
Beautiful.
